Feeling myself a lil bit today #turntup #swag #teal #sweater #tshirt #hugoboss #nerd #workflow #trans #teamnatural #TeamLibra #teamstut #teamQueer
Up late…Mind racing..
so i had a conversation today… with someone who doesn’t really know me that well..
she knows i’m queer
knows i am in love with my gf
and knows we work for the same company…
i shared something with her that not many people outside of my girlfriend and some extremely close friends know…
and well now the cyber world will know… i’ve considered fully transitioning… but right now i’m looking into it heavily…
i love myself.. but i have a poor self image… i don’t like my body… or the way it looks
now seeing as that i was just in the hospital in late August of 2011 i have had every blood test known to man run on me and was given some very shocking but kinda awesome news…
typically they measure the levels of naturally occurring testosterone in the bio female body on a scale of 5 to 45… ya boi’s results came back as a 69!!!
awesome ass number if i do say so myself… they put me on a medication that was supposed to decrease this… it was supposed to help “regulate my cycle” and “decrease the growth of my facial hair”… not that i ever said my faicial hair was a problem for me…
So its like i feel i have a leg up in this journey already… like… hell i’m naturally producing “too much” of this hormone that i will eventually/possibly have to inject into my body…
why not use what i already have and see if that’s already enough? why not just commit to getting my body the way i want it?
I haven’t found the energy that i need to commit to making my body appear the way i want it to…
i need that spark of inspiration… i need that motivation… i need direction… and i need support…
a piece that i personally identify with.. minus the part about not being touched.. i’m most definitely not a “touch me not”…. but i can understand the confusion and lack of knowledge on where exactly i drew my ideals from…
Disappointed just a tad…
So i got my binders today in the mail and needless to say i was disappointed in the compression tank. I didn’t realize when i ordered it that there would be such a HUGE difference in the fit of the tank model (997) and the muscle shirt model (974). Aside from the differences in the materials i didn’t think it would be that different. Boy was i wrong. The tank is a really thin mesh material but has absolutely NO give to it.. so if you plan on purchasing the tank make sure that you order an accurate size. I ordered a large in both models and was quite shocked that the tank wouldn’t go past my shoulders.
So if you are looking to order some Underworks I’d advise speaking with someone that already owns the model you are looking for as the sizing is obviously not the same in all models. i posted a picture earlier today of me in the muscle shirt.. i like how it feels on my skin and it moves and stretches.
I’m gonna attempt to exchange the tank for one of the correct size and i’ll keep you all posted when i get it!
So, college and university application season is about to begin in earnest soon, and I understand that many of my readers will be doing just that—researching and applying to colleges and universities for undergraduate or graduate study.
A big concern for many young students is housing on campus—what dorms will be like, &c. A bigger concern for some students is whether the colleges have in place housing policies designed to be inclusive to their welfare needs—that is, whether the institution has gender-neutral accommodation.
Guess what?
I’ve compiled a list of ‘em.
It is a work in perpetual progress; if you know of any institutions that i’ve left off this list, please let me know and i’ll add them forthwith. I’m particularly keen to expand the list to more schools in Canada, and it would be nice to have at least one college in every US State. This list is not, however, limited to North America. So, if you have anything to add, drop me a line!
Currently have 102 schools in the US and 2 in Canada. It’s not enough….
P.S. California currently leads with 15, followed by New York with 13 and Massachusetts with 10.
Hmmmm interesting
(via projectqueer)
